Past 8 years I've been fighting myself, but also the people around me.
Having a great wife, three amazing and beautiful daughters, an online business since 2011 which was successful from the start yet personally I felt unhappy, more and more each year.
Since I started producing mid 90's, making music was thé thing I loved. I obsessed about producing music. Samples, hihats, low frequencies, pads and more. I got obsessed with getting my sound to the level of the dance music on Dutch radio (especially 538).
In 2001 I quit my study in economics to start working at a record shop. Getting to know underground music, a lot of dj's and people in the music industry. Becoming part of the culture. All to be able to produce the best records I could and especially to find my place. People going places noticed and supported me and my music.
In 2006 I decided to launch my own record shop.It
was a wrong decision, driven by the same disbelief that has been holding me back past few years: You can't support your family with music so you need something else. In this case, a record shop.
Well, the shop crashed and closed in 2008. It affected my love for music big time.
I thought all was over. I couldn't even listen to music anymore. When my wife put on a performance of Tiesto in 2009, I started crying. Not because of what he was playing, because I couldn't stand watching it.
In 2013 (yes that is 5 f*&cking years), things started turning around when I heard Armin van Buuren with Trevor Guthrie on national radio. I picked up listening to music, and also producing again. And Sied van Riel remixed my track Strings & Guitars which was released and received extremely well.
If people were still listening to my music from years ago, I realized, it mattered. All kinds of small things happened but the major thing was, my perspective was turning to positive again.
Unconsciously, I had made the decision to return to music. And the story started repeating with people (including me) saying: You can't support your family with music.
You know what?
The power of your thoughts is the strongest power in the world. If you believe all is over, it is.
If you believe you can support your family with music, you can.
It really is that simple. And this is what Fighting Battles is about.
Whatever fight you are fighting right now: get your thoughts, your beliefs straight and you will win your fight.
released November 4, 2016